June 5th 2025 - 11:30am
Feeling: Anxious/Riled
Listening to: Shaken By A Low Sound by Crooked Still
Using this for what it is for, right? Phew. Yesterday, woke up to one of my cats peeing blood- lots of it. We have two, so it wasn't clear who was doing it since they both have been acting the exact same. Took them to the vet to get checked out, and it turns out it was Luna, the one who is "my" cat. She is a bit mean, more standoffish than a typical cat, just a usual mean old lady now. Both cats are about 15 years old, so its natural to have health issues pop up, but this has been a scary one. Vet took labs and we should hear back either today or tomorrow regarding what could be wrong, but the waiting? Phew, pretty horrible. It could be anything from stress (we have had more squirrels in the backyard) to something serious like kidney disease or cancer, and now I'm just... stuck waiting. Thinking about it and doing nothing but waiting. Shes in good spirits, getting antibiotics and something for stress, but its been rough. I'm leaving town next week and am absolutely dreading thinking about what could happen while I'm gone. I guess I just control what I can.
Anyway, I've been watching a gameplay of The Last of Us Part 2, and I'm loving it. I wasn't thrilled with how S2 of the show ended, and was really uncertain if it was an adaptation issue or something else. Turns out its adaptation, which is a plesant surprise. I'll probbaly have more thoughts about that when I finish my watch up, its a kind of game that I don't doubt is amazing, but is so not what I like to play that I'd rather not. Hope you enjoy the album though, personal favorites are Ecstacy (no surprise) and Ain't No Grave. Enjoy.
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Edit; Vet called and turns out cats are fine, the one without any symptoms has slightly high kidney levels, so we'll start transitioning them to better kidney food. I definitely cried when I heard the news, it was a relief I didn't know I was waiting for.
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May 31st 2025 - 10pm
Feeling: Proud of what I've learned
Listening to:Parachutes by Coldplay
This is my first real post. How exciting! I've been dreaming of working on this, in some capacity, and now- here it is! Just a little over a month of working on this, with many sleepless nights a few nights of staying up way past my bedtime to prove that "Hey, I can really do this. And I am doing this." Pretty surreal, you know?
Anyway.
Things are pretty weird right now. I work at a school, and this next coming week is the end of the year. It wasn't my dream career to work at a school, and it still isn't, but a paycheck is a paycheck, and this is the only place that is really paying worth my degree. How sad to think about. I have some exciting summer plans coming up of traveling, both just for fun and for volunteering at various things. It'll be neat. I'm now slightly paralyzed with the reality that whatever I write here is on the internet, for all to see... what do I really want to put? I always have these grand ideas for what would be great to write, coming up with my manifestos and soapbox pitches, and then I get in front of a keyboard and... nothing. I guess it's just me not placing as high of a value on my own writing when it's in this sort of social, low stakes environment. I'll have more to say when I feel the inspiration hit, and then I'll just debate posting it at all. Thanks for reading.
